Creativity was my word for 2025. I like my creativity to be functional, so I decided to start knitting. I first made a scarf and then went on to a sweater. The woman at the knitting store tried to encourage me to make a hat after the scarf. I told her I really wanted to make a sweater.
My friend Wendy is an excellent knitter and I knew she would help me through the hard parts. I also attend the library knitting circle when I can. It is a new sit down activity for me. Some days, I can’t believe I am in the library knitting and talking about pie. I really enjoy it. It has been great to meet new people. You just sit there. You don’t need to eat or drink. You don’t need to talk if you don’t want to. You sit and knit and 5 months later you have a new sweater! The ladies are so supportive and everyone tells you how much they love your sweater. Knitters are very nice people.
I have decided my word for the year is creativity.
I started knitting again. I haven’t knitted since college. Back in the day, I was low on funds. I decided to knit hats for Christmas gifts. This time, I thought I would really like to knit a sweater. I went to Mother’s Knitters in Red Bank with my friend, Anne. I decided a sweater was a bit ambitious and it would be best to start with a scarf. I am making it for myself! Dante at the store suggested a super merino wool and told me to go with a light color. Apparently, you can see your mistakes easier with a light color. Anne got me started and now I am about 2 feet in. I am really enjoying it. I knit in the evening during Jeopardy and Wheel of Fortune. It is not just straight knitting either. Every row has a knit purl section to it. When I make a mistake, I go to You Tube to learn how to fix it. Thank you You Tube. Next, I will knit a sweater!
I told my therapist that I started knitting again and she sent me this quote from a Native American woman.
“Grandma how do you deal with pain?” “With your hands, dear. When you do it with your mind, the pain hardens even more.” “With your hands, grandma?” “Yes, yes. Our hands are the antennas of our Soul. When you move them by sewing, cooking, painting, touching the earth or sinking them into the earth, they send signals of caring to the deepest part of you and your Soul calms down. This way she doesn’t have to send pain anymore to show it. “Are hands really that important?” “Yes my girl. Think of babies: they get to know the world thanks to their touch. When you look at the hands of older people, they tell more about their lives than any other part of the body. Everything that is made by hand, so it is said, is made with the heart because it really is like this: hands and heart are connected. Think of lovers: When their hands touch, they love each other in the most sublime way.” “My hands grandma… how long since I used them like that!” “Move them my love, start creating with them and everything in you will move. The pain will not pass away. But it will be the best masterpiece. And it won’t hurt as much anymore, because you managed to embroider your Essence.”~Elena Barnabé S
Gardening season is coming. What do you like to do with your hands?
I am back at it. I was committed to blogging every month. I was consistent through November. December was a doozey of a month, with a brick on the head wake up call. I know I have been putting it off, because I am not sure what to share. I decided I just need to start. I went back and looked at my journal. I was feeling a lot of stress the past few months. I was agitated much of the time and not sleeping well. I just kept pushing to get things done. What I needed to do was stop and slow down. A part of me feels accomplished by getting so much done. I also felt resentful about having to do so much. Back to my brick on the head wake up call. My son Tom and I were driving to church on a beautiful Sunday December morning. I dropped off homemade sourdough bagels at my friend’s house. We were driving down her street at 25 mph when a kid pulled out of the Walgreen’s parking lot and hit us. The car spun around, the air bags blew and I was yelling the whole time. Apparently, that is how I respond in a crisis. We were fine, no one was hurt but my beautiful Honda CRV, was totaled. So, so Sad. I loved that car!
I thought I was handling the accident well. I was grateful that no one was hurt. At the same time, I felt like crying. I was so sad about my car. Christmas Eve was the topper. We went to my niece’s house for Christmas Eve dinner. We got home that night, and around 10 pm, I was having a nose bleed. I got it to stop. I went to bed and woke up at 1 am with blood on the sheets and my nose was bleeding again. This time, I couldn’t get it to stop. I was starting to panic. Dan, my husband googled how to stop a nosebleed and we decided I better go to the Emergency Room. Dan went upstairs to get Thomas, our special needs son, up. I was laying on the couch in the den. I decided to get up and I went by the front door. I was starting to pass out. I could feel the right side of my face and neck tightening up. I am thinking I am having a stroke. I started yelling call 911, I’m having a stroke. I managed to get myself back on the couch. I felt much better. Meanwhile, our neighbor who is an EMT is at my door. 2 Little Silver police officers, a Little Silver ambulance and the paramedics showed up. They checked my vitals, and they made me smile to see if both sides of my mouth went up. I wasn’t having a stroke just a full blown panic attack. In the middle of all this, my nosebleed stopped. I haven’t had one since.
The incident reminded me that I need to slow down and refocus on taking really good care of myself. I am doing Wim Hoff breathing and meditating daily. I take a cold bath or shower 3-4 times a week. I put myself in therapy. I am feeling better. I notice when I start feeling agitated and I do my best to stop. I also bought a new car which I love. It took about a month to find. It is a beautiful black 2021 Acura RDX with 26,000 miles on it. We bought it off the auction which was very exciting. I joined the car wash club. I am taking great care of myself and my car. It feels important.
Thanks for reading.
Love,
Mary
My Acura drawing looks like a VW Bus, which would be fun too!
“I tell you about my Dad to tell you that the reality that there are tens of millions of people who do not find character and integrity and truth telling to be basic requirements for elected public service is absolutely insane to me.” Rob Bell
It has been a rough month since the election. I have focused on taking really good care of myself. I want to have a calm nervous system. I signed up for an online Illustrative Figures course, and started drawing with colored pencils. Art therapy is a real thing. It has been helpful to spend quiet time drawing. I search for a quote that goes with the sketch. It has been fun and I will keep on practicing.
I am also plunging twice a week with the Plungettes. The ocean is 53 degrees. The water has been calm and beautiful. Our goal is 11 minutes a week. Plunging is a challenge and always makes me feel better.
I am back drinking my coffee with butter, MCT oil, plus a scoop of collagen. I am focusing on getting enough protein. I am working on cutting down on my alcohol intake which is never easy. I am tired of thinking about it. I know it is not good for me, but it is such a nice way to end the day. I do feel better with less.
I had a mammogram, a CT scan for my Calcium score and my eye lasered. All is well. I am happy to check all of that off my list!
Now, on to peace and joy for the Holidays. Enjoy it, focus on feeling your best!
Love,
Mary
“To plant a garden is to believe in tomorrow.” Audrey Hepburn
Puttering: Puttering brings me joy. Two weeks ago,I wrote in my journal, I vacuumed, dusted and put the pumpkin pillow on the wicker chair sitting in the kitchen entrance. Very satisfying. It is such an October thing to do. Many days I have puttering on my to-do list.
Running and OutdoorFit: This is a spectacular time of year to be running in the woods. We have had cool crisp mornings with beautiful fall foliage. I have been running twice a week with my friend Dorian. I am proud to say, I am in much better shape than I was last year. I don’t spend the rest of the day feeling so fatigued. It is quite an accomplishment for me. We are doing 6 weeks of HIIT at OutdoorFit! We are on our 5th week. The ladies have increased their weights and the intensity. They are seeing results.
Cold Plunging: The cold plunge training season has started. The water is 60 degrees. I have to start training in October so my body will adjust to the colder temperatures ahead. I must say, I am feeling a bit wimpy about it this year. The plungettes and I are shooting for twice a week.
Tap Class: I am working on my tapping. It is still very humbling. I haven’t found the joy in it yet. There are moments when I feel the rhythm in my body. I just think I should be able to do it. I will carry on…practice, practice, practice.
Happy Anniversary: Dan and I celebrated our 47th wedding anniversary! We actually went away for the night. We had a good friend spend the night with Thomas and Sophie. We went to the Grounds for Sculpture which was amazing. We stayed at the Lamberville Station Hotel and I had shrimp, scallops and lobster risotto for dinner. It was lovely.
Gardening: We took out the Red Bud tree in the front yard. It sadly was slowly dying. I am happy to have opened up the space. The fall is a great time to plant bargains from the local nursery. I bought 3 white cone flower plants for 70% off. I am working on making the garden more self sufficient. It is nice to have hardy perennials that will come back and take care of themselves.
Books: I am reading The Great Aloneby Kristin Hannah.
REFINISHED FLOORS: I have been wanting to refinish our floors for years. We have been living in our house for 41 years, and the floors needed to be refinished. Most of the floors were golden oak, but the stairs and one bedroom were dark . I wanted everything to match. I went with Natural to go with the shades of white on the walls. It is very pretty and soothing.
CLEANED OUT THE GARAGE AND CLOSETS: We had to put our furniture in the garage and basement in order to refinish the floors. I am being very mindful as to what is coming back in. I love a minimal look and it is so much easier to keep clean. I bought a Norwek Mop to keep the floors clean. I am mopping the kitchen and den area every night before bed. I love our lighter house, keeping it clean and less cluttered. Is puttering a pastime?
70TH BIRTHDAY: I had a steak dinner and carrot cake with my family. My brothers took me out to Drew’s Bistro for beer, pork chops, bacon sauerkraut, and smashed potatoes. The OutdoorFit ladies took me out for eggs benedict and French toast. It was a delicious birthday week!
RUNNING AND OUTDOORFIT: I am running twice a week in Huber woods. Three times a week, I am doing a 60 rep OutdoorFit weight training workout. My arms and shoulders feel strong when I am running. It is all quite amazing. I am at a weight that I was when I was 30.
TAP CLASS: I started tapping! I joined a beginner’s class through the park system. It is very humbling. I am not Gene Kelly yet but I am working on it!
BOOKS: I read Allison Pataki’s The Magnificent Lives Of Marjorie Post, Diane Keaton’sFashion First and Marie Benedicts’ The First Ladies.
How was your September? What have you been working on? I would love to hear.
Today, I ran in the woods at noon time in the drizzle. I am thrilled to be back on the trails after falling and hurting my shoulder in July. I started running with my friend, Dorian last March. Dorian told me that today was the best run I had since I started with her. That was high praise coming from her! A few weeks ago, she told me that I looked like a decrepit old lady running up the hill. Today felt like the good ol’ days of running in the rain and the mud.
Our goal is to break the national record for the mile in our age group. I don’t know if I will ever get there. I do know I am in much better shape then I was a year ago.
Big news! After years of avoiding bread, I decided to start eating it again, guilt-free, with butter. I love Kerry Gold grass fed butter. It is a very cozy treat along with a hot bowl of soup. Bonus, I have lost 7 pounds!
I just finished Rob Bell’sWhere did you park your spaceship? Heen Gru-Bares, the main character, loves sourdough rosemary bread. After listening to the 12 hour audio book, I feel like sourdough rosemary bread is in my cells. I need to make the bread! Making sourdough bread is a big deal. You don’t need yeast. It rises with the natural fermentation process. I hope it works out. I am making the starter, which takes at least 7 days. You need to feed it daily and keep it warm. Ideally it should stay between 75-80 degrees, so it ferments properly. I am keeping it in the oven with the light on for a little heat, It is a commitment and a fun winter project!
I also feel my cold plunges have been very helpful in keeping my weight down this winter. I am on Day 75 of our cold plunge challenge. I have not missed a day. I am impressed with myself! It has been very helpful. My mood is better, I have great energy throughout the day and I am grateful not to have put on my usual winter weight.
“Margarine? That’s not food. I Can’t Believe It’s Not Butter? I can. If you’re planning on using margarine in anything, you can stop reading now, because I won’t be able to help you.”
Today is Day 46 of my cold plunge challenge. My sister and I plunged for 30 days and decided to continue until the end of the year. I am impressed with myself. I can usually rationalize my way out of things. This challenge has been hard. There are many days when I really don’t want to get into the cold water. The tap water is now 50 degrees. I do it anyway, and I always feel better. It is a instant mood changer.
I have created a spa like ritual around plunging. I workout first, because that is what I do. I come home and turn on the kettle for my collagen protein coffee, start the water in the bath tub, and light my “ocean air” candle that my niece bought for me. When the tub is filled, I take a few deep breaths and grab my hot cup of coffee as I get into the tub. I have a few sips of coffee and then I submerge myself in the tub. I breathe my way through it. In the past, I would try my best to distract myself. Now, I sit there and breathe. I feel like I can cross meditation off my to do list. I stay in for three to four minutes. In the past, I would stay in for at least 5. I have found I am cold enough with three to four minutes. I get out, towel off and moisturize myself with coconut oil. I then use a gua sha tool on my face and neck. All of this is done in 15 minutes or so. I feel so much better!
I am so grateful for the cold tap water. I am also meeting with the plungettes for a cold plunge in the ocean once or twice a week. It is always more fun with friends. Click here to read 6 benefits to cold water plunging.
I am losing muscle, we all do as we age. Have you heard of sacropenia? “Sarcopenia is defined as the loss of muscle tissue as a natural part of the aging process.” In July, I fell and hurt my right shoulder. I had to cut back on my training. 4 months later, I am still rehabbing. OutdoorFit and running are my super powers. It feeds my confidence and I love feeling strong and fit. When I don’t, I am cranky, whiney and out of sorts. It is gotten to the point that I am sick of myself. Time to make some changes!
I have decided to cold plunge every day for 30 days. I am on Day 5 and I am starting to feel so much better. The tap water is 57 degrees and feels plenty cold. I stay in for 3 minutes or so. It is enough. I am fortunate to live 5 miles from the ocean so I plunge with my friends two to three days a week for 5 minutes or so. I am hoping that the cold water will help heal my shoulder and be a mood changer. I must admit it is never easy.
This morning, I was cold and clammy after OutdoorFit. Going home to sit in a cold tub was the last thing I wanted to do. I drove home from the workout with both the heated seats and the heater on high. I am sorry I don’t have a heated steering wheel. I made myself a cup of hot collagen protein coffee and got into the cold bathtub. I sit in the tub and breathe for three minutes, and try not to yell. I also have accountability partners. My sister Kathleen, and my niece Elizabeth have committed to the 30 days. This is the first try for Elizabeth. Kathleen is a seasoned plungette. She gets up at 5:30 am and sits outside in the dark in her polar tub. My brother Paul is searching for a tub that will be large enough for him He is a big guy.
I do find joy through discipline. In the past, I avoided doing uncomfortable or hard things. Now, I push. It brings me joy to challenge myself. I am nervous and uncomfortable but I do it anyway. It is so good for me. To be honest, the joy comes afterwards.
MARY KININGHAM 