I hate feeling nervous. It is very uncomfortable.
One of the reasons I stopped running in road races is because I would be so nervous before the race. Even though it would be fabulous after I finished the race, There was a part of me that thought why am I doing this? So, I quit.
In the past ten – twelve years, I have started to push myself to do more. It can be very boring not to challenge yourself. Part of me wants to be a shining star. I still get nervous and don’t like it much, but I know if I want to improve, I must put myself in positions that are uncomfortable.
I do not like public speaking. I do my best to avoid it. A friend told me to join Toastmasters because I said “SO” too many times in my videos. Who knew? She said I would be so much more effective without filler words. It is amazing how I now hear the filler words, “um”, “ah”, “you know” and “so” when others speak.
I joined Toastmasters last year. I would go but avoided doing the work. I would go to meetings and hope I wouldn’t get called on to speak. What is the point of that?
We meet every Monday and every week I want to quit. As with my road racing, after the meeting, I am usually happy that I went. Toastmasters pushes me out of my comfort zone, but it is in a controlled setting. Everyone is supportive, and they clap after you speak, Good or Bad. So, I have committed to step it up and give speeches.
Yesterday, I gave my second speech and it went well. Of course, I had everyone get up and do a few exercises.
What are you doing to make yourself uncomfortable? Are you pushing yourself to learn and to become more? I am! I have started running again too.
It is never too late!
Your honesty in your blogs is admirable and draws me to see your posts. At 55 years of age, I continue to be a work in progress. Sometimes I get off track from my goals but have learned to forgive myself and move on. I believe that if we can’t first forgive ourselves then nothing else matters. I’ve met many women my age that have resigned themselves to their health issues, “old-age”, unfulfilling jobs/relationships..fill in the blank). Thank you for being the voice that shares feelings of fear and doesn’t let them stand in the way of personal growth.
Thank you Cindy for your comment. We are all in this together. Carry on!