I have joined a writing circle. Something I never thought about doing. I have thought it would be great to be a best selling novelist and write in front of an ocean front window. You know, like Diane Keaton in Something’s Gotta Give.
Today, I set up a little creativity table in our spare room. Something I always wanted but never bothered doing. I made a cup of ginger tea, and I set my timer for 20 minutes and started drawing. I wanted to create an illustration that went with I wrote.
I started reading Writing from the Heart by Nancy Slonim Aronie. Her first assignment is to write one thing someone said to you a long time ago that still hurts. Again, I set my timer. This time for ten minutes and I started writing.
“No wonder you look sick your hair is parted on the wrong side.” Mom
I was probably 8 at the time. It always feel like I am eight at the time.
I imagine myself playing in the mirror with my hair venturing out to try new things. My Mom sees me and says, “No wonder you look sick your hair is parted on the wrong side.”
How has this shut me down? Has it made me self conscious of wearing my hair differently or wearing something I normally wouldn’t wear? Am I afraid to change because I might look worse or I might be noticed?
How many times have I done that to my kids? This is what therapy is made of.
Even to this day, I think of my hair when I see my Mom. She likes it better up. Who do you think you are with your hair long and flowing is what is playing in my head.
It is weird and amazing the power one sentence can have on your head,
At 64, it is time to get past so many things.
- Wear your hair anyway you want.
- Step into the world with confidence.
- Go get a pedicure.
- Buy a dress.
- Wear your sneakers with everything.
- Put on Red Lipstick. Boom!
- Wear a headband maybe even with a knot in it.
Just writing all of this gives me a clarity, joy and happiness. I love my Mom and Fitness is my Fashion Statement!
What brings you clarity, joy and happiness? Set a timer, and bring out the colored pencils, it can be very helpful.
Loved the read, Mary! I can identify with both the child hearing painful words, and the mom trying to stay aware enough not to say them amidst the chaos of everyday life.
Thanks for your inspiration, always. I’m working that list of things to get past with you! Let’s put on a dress with our sneakers and a headband, and dance!
Thanks Beverly! I know I have lots of do over moments with my kids. Dance is the next step for me to conquer. I am thinking of taking a tap class. Can I put taps on my sneakers?
Powerful post, Mary!
Thanks for sharing….
Thanks Alyssa! It is so nice to hear from you!